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BBB
03:23
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Snow is falling on the front lawn
Everything is soft and still
I am freezing in gray sweatpants
Looking out by the windowsill
Hear a song in my brain
Take a seat at the keys and I’m fumbling
Until my fingers land in the right place
There’s a stirring in the house
Interrupted hibernation
Friends are shuffling to fill their parts
In this implicit orchestration
Tony sits by my side
I crawl down to the pedals
And play the bass line
Everybody’s singing, screaming, “It’s alive!”
I write the same thing every morning
In this journal by my bed
It’s been two years since I left that place
But it’s still living in my head
Nostalgia kills
Ah, what a trap
I try to fight the feeling
But the feeling fights back
It’s so hard to look ahead
When all your dreams are hijacked
Picture myself back in the basement
On that stage we built ourselves
Cobwebs clogging up the rafters
Broken lights and dusty shelves
There’s a piece of my soul
That’s been locked away
In that concrete hole
That I tried to bury without a proper funeral
Goodbye, Blue Bunny
Goodbye, Big Blue
Promise to release you
(But you gotta)
Let me go, too
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2. |
SMOOCH
02:56
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I will never forget the first time
I saw him coming out of the trees
Fear in his eyes, tongue hanging to the side
He was skinny, dying, and shaking bad so badly
Everybody thought I was lying
I would feed him scraps when I could
They said a deer would never make it out there all alone
Until they caught him digging around in the compost
Bugs bite and whole lives can change
Some things never go away
I was pretty sure that they got him
One night in the middle of May
I heard the coyote cry, bloody full moon in the sky
But it was over by the time I ran into the driveway
Every now and then people see him
Like the Jersey Devil of the Shawangunks
With bluetongue in his veins, his power taken away
The king has fallen, he's crawling
But he won't give up, he won't give up!
Bugs bite and whole lives can change
Some things never go away
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DISAPPEARING ACT
03:10
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There's a robin in the garden soaking up the sun
It's been 23 days since I last spoke to anyone
And I'm smoking out the window, blowing circles in the breeze
It's a lanternfly invasion, yeah they're chewing up the trees
Speed up, slow down, start over
Speed up, slow down, start over
I finally read your letter, it's been in a box for years
From right before I broke your heart and abruptly disappeared
Well, you wrote a lot of nice things, but really knew how to get me
You said everything I ever loved died in the nineties
Maybe you're right
Speed up, slow down, start over
Speed up, slow down, start over
Now the cats are in the garden, creeping up real slow
Robin's in the hot seat, it's me and birdie on death row
In a prison of potential, yeah I got myself put away
She doesn't know her next move but she's taking off anyway
Into the night
Speed up, slow down, start over
Speed up, slow down, start over
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IN THE LIGHT
03:29
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I see you standing there by the bonfire
Clutching your glass so tight
If you held it any harder it would shatter
And I know you’d rather not talk tonight
It's the first time that I’ve seen you in three years
And I should have known that you’d be here
It’s my best friend’s wedding and you’re dating his little sister
And the thought of that just makes me sick
It’s not that I know her that well, it’s the possibility
That’s she’s buying all your bullshit just like we all did
And doesn’t know
Terrible memories flash before me
Of you hanging ‘round our house banging on the door
I’d say “what’s the point in knocking?” every time that I’d find
You getting drunk in our living room
Acting like time was something we owed you
Oh but tonight I find myself wondering if you’ve changed
And even if you’re still the same I’ve got a couple things I’d like to say
‘Bout the way you treated all of us
We’re getting right into the hard stuff
You think you deserved a fair trial
But you could understand why we lost our patience after awhile
And as I’m brushing the ashes
Away from your collar
You tell me that your brother died right before we met
And once you found something good you just threw it away
Threw it all away
In the dark we look for god
In the light we’re drawn back down to the devil
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NORTH GULLY
02:55
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“Park the car ahead!”
I see you pointing at a side street
Up on the left
You said that once or twice already
But this time I believe it
And I finally pull off of State Route 52
Pop the trunk, grab a tent and a guitar case
And I’m following you
Up into the trees
Moonlight making its way through
Like laser beams
We cross a bridge at the top
I can’t even see the water
I get the feeling it’s a hundred miles below
And I’m about to ask but the smile on your face
Says I’d rather not know
Posting up on a ledge
Strumming chords into the darkness
Between your brain and mine
We can play any song
Just about right
I wake up at dawn
To the sound of the birds and the bugs
And you’re gone
I step outside to the edge
And watch the sun rising
Filling up the gully with pink light
I spot you down there
Splashing ‘round at the base of the waterfall
You and me on the moss
Flat out, watching prop planes float across
And there’s still story that you tell me every now and then
About the time that you ran away to this place
And the details always change
But I believe you when you say
“It feels like home”
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COLLEGE TOWN
06:49
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To be back is to suffer immensely. It isn’t the memories that are painful. It’s the full body electrocution of reconnecting with a past life. There, over on the corner of Main and North Front Street – a small bench colloquially known as Manny’s Lounge where I used to get high and watch passersby. I stroll past the stoop where kids would brown bag it and flip off the cops, brainstorming a better world. That place used to be a coffee shop. And this over here, well that was a record store.
It’s raining now on Water Street. I spread my arms wide and laugh hard in the face of annihilation. I’ve got nobody left in this college town. Three years ago me would have jumped at the sound. Three years ago me wanted change, solitude, to be unknown. To move away and encourage everyone else to do the same.
They left the chairs out under the awning at Mudd Puddle. I drop my bags and willingly surrender to the jagged embrace of cold metal. Sitting by the road and doing my time like Blaze Foley. Where did everybody go? Bell tower in the distance sings its warbled song; I cringe at every note that crawls out from the deluge. In the morning this tune has a charming kind of optimism to it. Over the course of the day something odd happens. Maybe it’s all in the listener. But a certain sort of desperation sets in and at 8pm it’s feeling later than it’s ever been.
I book a cheap room and call a cab. Driver wants to know what I’m doing out here. “Making a record,” I say. “Looks like you’ve got a solid crew.” Funny guy. I want to know what he’s doing out here so I ask if he goes to the college. He says yes, or at least he used to, until he was abducted by aliens. I want details. Where did this happen, when, what does he remember? Driver starts telling a story from two, maybe three summers ago, when he was standing outside the engineering building and…and…and…he breaks out into hysterical laughter. I wanna know what the joke is. He says no one’s ever bought the bit so readily and that he’s never even made it this far or thought of a proper backstory. I’m devastated, grieving the loss of what could have been the most interesting part of my day. Just another disappointment.
No one is at the front desk of the hotel. Just a little note with my key that reads, “help yourself.” Room looks like an old photograph: black and white with the occasional stain here and there. Lingering stench of cigarettes and day-old conversations. I put on a pot of coffee and flip through Gideon’s bible. Gideon wants to know if I’m alone, depressed, addicted, stressed, cheated, experiencing conflict or temptation. Hmm. Things are bad but not bad enough to find god in some fleabag hotel.
I take my coffee straight into the shower. Water isn’t hot but it’s warm enough to fog up the wall-length mirrors across the way. I see in them my distorted body illuminated under dentist office lighting fixtures and spread my arms once more, laughing in the face of annihilation.
Hollow eyes, hollow bones, hollow heart.
It’s all hollow.
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7. |
FLORIDA (HAPPY FOR YOU)
02:57
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Do you remember
Those times you’d lock yourself away for a day or more
And I’d write you songs hoping they’d make their way up
Through the floorboards
Well this is one of those
I hope you hear it from a thousand miles away
I just wanted to say, “hey”
It’s been a long time
Probably since that night we tripped on sass in your old bedroom
And we cried at the unlikelihood of ever having met
Now I don’t know you
But I hope you’re doing well down south
In the mouth of hell
Maybe Florida isn’t that bad
I’m just glad it’s you and not me
You were always the beach babe between the two of us
But I’ll cut the flattery ‘cause there’s a pretty good chance you wish you
Could erase my memory
At the time, you thought that I was leaving you behind
And that's what I did, plain and simple
I liked the way things were but you had something different in mind
And I wanted a way out
I wanted a way
And I found it
In the concrete heaven and hell of Philadelphia
When nobody's being real
Sometimes it's better to let the damn thing die
But it must have been good for you
Because I heard about your latest love connection
And you're living together, too
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8. |
YARD SALE
03:45
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Here she comes again
She's pulling up with all her friends
She's got a red bandana on
And looks a little like Rosie
It's the day of the yard sale
And we're selling what we can:
Bicycles and art supplies, busted up skateboards and t-shirts
Adorned with fireflies
And I pretend not to see her
So she picks through the records
And Joe's acting like an auctioneer
Says, "There's something for everyone in here!"
And I turn away singing a little melody
Everything I do and do not want in the same place
And I'm in outer space
The summer of quarantine and we've been locked up
Five months to the day
CDC says the sun will come and burn that shit away
So we've come out to play
And mark the end of this time
Before we pack our things and step aside
But I'm freaking out because it's all such a mess
I don't remember how to speak to my own friends and I'm
Touch starved and obsessed with Red Bandana
Who isn't so sure how much she wants
But she likes the taste
Well, I'm gone in thirteen days and it feels like such a waste
She buys an Elton John CD and heads back home
Then she's blowing up my phone
Says it skips her favorite track
I say, "What a shame, there's no refunds
Maybe you should try to pay attention to the songs that work
The songs that want to be heard"
The storm moves in real fast
Washing away the last of our belongings
Straight into the creek
Six pairs of bare feet huddled up in the pouring rain
At the end of a dead end lane
Where I try to take my own advice
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9. |
SUNDAY AFTERNOON
03:10
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Take your shoes off, babe
We’ve got so much to say
Let’s get personal before it’s too late
Let your hair down babe
It’s Sunday afternoon and you say
You look so much like your mother
Walk away, walk away
You know that I’ll still be here
Walk away, walk away
And when you say that you’re sorry
I’ll be sorry too
Take a picture babe
Tomorrow we’ll laugh and cry
And wonder why we were so young
Sing your heart out babe
Cause all the big rock stars were your age
And you’ve got all of our attention (yes, you do)
Walk away, walk away
You know that I’ll still be here
Walk away, walk away
And when you say that you’re sorry
I’ll be sorry too
I'll be sorry too
I'll be sorry too (go ahead)
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Elijah Bloome
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